A List of Worries, for my mother
2008-03-21 // 3:44 a.m.
Father:
Is getting sicker
Won't remember me
Never loved me
Doesn't know who I am
Will fall
Will die
Is dying
Hates me, for letting him die
Hates me, for not being good enough
Can't remember my mother
Children:
Will be killed:
in a car accident
by a pyschopath
during a robbery
and raped
and it will be my fault
and I won't have talked to them that day
Will die
Will forget me
Will put me in a nursing home
Resent me
Don't love me
Aren't there for me like I was for my mother
I:
am sick
am getting sicker
am feeling worse every day
am afraid.
I'm worried that I'm afraid.